Found a video of guys wetting pullups on yt, when i was 12, kept coming back to it although I didnt understood why back than. Found more videos of guys wetting real diapers reqlly liked it .
Found a fora for abdl and suddenly I understood everything. Bought my first diapers . Tried it, liked it even more.
After a while my mom found my diapers. My parents were really relaxed thankfully. They didnt understood it but accepted it.
Only tried real diapers untill last year , then I bought my first pullips and baby diapers which is convenient since i can get them at the pharmacy.